Not Sure Why

But I'm thinkin' about Heaven tonight. I'm thinking about how glorious that will be.

God is continually teaching me lessons, and when I don't catch on, He gives me a refresher course. He's got 6 billiom others to worry about, and yet He takes time to re-teach me! I feel honored!

I've been through pre-school- twice, kindergarten- twice, 12 grades of school, and then 4 years of Dordt. That's......well, more years then I care to be in school!!

So, you'd think I'd catch on to the lessons that God has been teaching my for my 27 years of life. Some days, I do pretty good. I get a 'gold star' or a smiley face.

But, other days, my Instructor says to me, "You're getting off track a bit, remember what we went over."

My shy response is, "I know. Of course, I get it. I've been studying this stuff for what seems likes ages!"

You know, passing a psychology exam, or even an algebra exam is easy. If you're deligent and look over your notes every night, by test time, you're ready. OR, if you're like me, cramming the night before works relatively well, too!!

However, I've been done with school now for 5 years. But, that doesn't mean I'm done learning. And, unfortunatly, sometimes the lessons of life are harder to learn. Some days, I'm not sure I'm cut out for it.

I'm stubborn. And while that has been one of my greates assets, it has also been a weakness. I'm almost too stubburn sometimes to accept the lessons that God has taught me. I still fight it, even after I've gotten a glimpse of how refreshing it is to embrace these lessons. Not just white-knuckle my way through, but really embracing what I've been taught.

I'm weak. I feel weak these days. But, that's part of the journey, I'm learning.

Here's to that day when the learning will be over....